☣PYROMANIAC☣

✖✖Playing With Matches✖✖
2012-07-17 20:59:49 (UTC)

Everyday it rains.

I feel so alone.
None of my friends I can count on.
My family won't get it, and brush it off.

I think of Jeremy and Ashley everyday..
Jeremy only pretends to care,
but is here, but Ashley could care eventually, but she isn't here.
I feel hurt by them everyday.
I feel so betrayed by Jeremy, I feel abandoned by Ashley, it grows worse by every sunrise.
I feel so awful, I've heard everyone's ways to make me feel better so much I'm sick and tired of it all.
"I'm sorry; I don't know what to say; I wish I could do something; Everything will be fine; MY BEST FRIEND JUST SAYS: ok."
I've heard it all!
Those words sound really great!
They really make you sound like you care! When they don't give it another thought.
Sure things will be fine, next week, next year.. but what about right now? What do I do?
I'M FUCKING AGONIZING, AND ALL THEY THINK TO DO IS SAY I'M SORRY?
I want to just give up, so bad, and
Jeremy is ignoring me, Ashley's in another state, and may not come back, all my friends won't even try to help, and my family won't understand, decree it a tiny worry and leave me to suffer! I learned that a long time ago!
So do I just swallow it again?
Bottle it up, add it to the steaming pot of bitter anger, and sorrow to rot me inside out?
Let the scalding broth flay me alive??
Let this madness claw at me?

Yes.




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