octmist63

libralove
2012-07-16 09:08:07 (UTC)

back to the drawing board

Here we go again.....Rocky lost the job in Franklin with the cleaning service, went to a temp service of course that situation ended...so here we go again...still no permanent job which makes things hard on me.

you know all i want is simple things... for him to get steady full employment, for us to be able to get the bills paid without being in a panic everytime they are due, to able to go to the grocery store without having to count every penny twice, to be able to make my house payment and then every now and then for us to be able to go to a movie or do something fun.

i am extrememly stressed out everyday, i am forever ploting and planning on how to make this work and to take care of this situation, but yet and still i feel like i have no one to take care of me or to meet my personal needs. i would love to come home or on my off days to just be home and be peaceful and secure.

i have issues with Rocky. i want him to appear neat and clean all the time. my next issue is the housework. all i want him to do is to pickup after himself. he smokes...so empty the ash tray, put your dirty dishes in the sink, put your dirty clothes in the basket, take your shoes in the other room, if the trash cans are full empty them. cut the grass without me having to beg. i need for him to act like a grown man not a kid so that i will not have to talk to him like i am his mother. My mother tells me I am living in a pretend world.




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