McBuggyy101

Aunalysia
2012-07-10 07:06:45 (UTC)

Mon Cher. I pushed you away.

My Dear Oscar,
Oh how I miss you so much & shocklingly still care for you. Fucked up out how things turned out between us & I never ment to hurt you. We have our good days & we have our bad days, but see, thats called history. We have history together that cannot be forgotten. You may not apoligize for your action but I'm going to apoligize about mine.
I'm truely sorry that me & you just could not hold it together. But you & I are happier where we're at now. Although I do wish we could still be friends. I'm sorry that we didn't realize we were not ment tot be sooner. That would have saved me a lot of tears & spared you some friends. I'm sorry that I couldn't understand your actions. I'm sorry that I blame you were everything even when I was acting like a child too.
Oscar you were my love, you were my bestfriend. I never realized how good people can connect in only two years. We get into our fights & we say sorry. I'm not saying that you might come back to me because at the time I know you don't want this. I just wish we could still be friends. At times I would just check my phone to see a "hello" or a "Fatttyy." text from you. I remember the first time we had got into an arguement & you had called me that same weekend. I remember how we hungout the next day & I could just remember that day like it was yesterday. I also remember that day you asked me to be your girlfriend, I thought it was the best day of my life.
Now I loved you so much. You were the only person who could put a smile on my face when I was breaking down. You were the only person that I could look in the eye & have an actual connection with. You were the only person that I actually cared for our relationship to work out. But now thats all gone. But maybe forever more I will still love you. I know now I feel like bursting in tears. I still love you mon cher. But things between us have changed now. You hurt me, & then I hurt you.
I pushed you away.

-Love Always,
Fatty.




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