kiddo16

NaivetY & ChildhooD LefT BehinD
2012-07-09 22:44:55 (UTC)

Be strong

Saturday... Sunday... and today is the end of Monday. 3 days have passed since I dropped him that message. Well, he didn't reply me in the end. I guess this is my 3rd failure in love. Will there be any other chances that I'll go through this again? I'm not sure. People say once bitten, twice shy.. now it's the third time. Well, it's always the case where people disappoint me but I have yet to gain a chance to disappoint others. It's always me liking them.. looking at them from a distance but never the other way round. How I wish I could ever get that fortune to be looked at instead of someone who keeps looking. So yea, I should have known it coming. I guess I'm kinda sad though it's expected. That's what my life is about... not much of good fortune. Can I be at least sad? Hmm.. when others are sad they can really show it but when my turn comes, I was supposed to keep it under control and get it over fast... well, I guess I should get over it fast since there's nothing in the first place. It was just wishful thinking on my part... then there's also the dreams that I have these few nights.. I keep missing the bus and people keep leaving me. It's a sign I guess.. a sign that I'm meant not to be happy and hated by people. I could see it in their eyes. I'm not worthy of anyone's love and attention. Haiz! You've got to start learning on how to live alone Dada! No one's gonna be there for you in the years to come. You just end up being alone... live alone and die alone. Oh well, be strong dada!




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