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Similarities are spooky
On mu way in to work this morning I had a thought, there are scary similarities to my work life and my married life.
Just in a nutshell, in the beginning it was all new, I was learning every day. The whole experience was exhilarating because I felt I was part of something bigger than me. I belonged and I was important.
As the years past, my role of importance has seemed to diminish. I was starting to see that I was not as important as I thought I was. I still gave it my all but did not feel as satisfied.
At work, I kept my "nose to the grindstone" at home I went to work, came home and presented my pay check.
Neither of these seemed to satisfy anything in me personally. At work I saw others getting promoted, going on field assignments, getting ahead. I was still at my post, grinding away fighting the good fight.
At home, no matter how much more I brought in there was less and less for me. I know this sounds petty and self absorbed but I am finding it hard to really describe what I am meaning other than I felt like I was being pushed more into the corner and becoming less a member of the family and more just a pay check.
I look around now and I am at the point in my job that I have finally been able to move up a bit...I have a good position within the company...but I still feel incomplete. But I have way too much time invested (25yrs) to walk away, whether I like what I am doing or not.
My marriage seems the same way. We do not have any facsimile of a "normal" marriage, but we have been together 28 yrs. Hard to just up and walk away from that.
What a lot to think about in my little 10-15 minute drive to work.
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