Unwanted

Ready to be just ok
2012-06-28 12:36:51 (UTC)

sexual perversion?

Ok, so I made it through my birthday, another year wiser and definitely ready for new crazy adventures. Plus, I am still alive. I feel that I must write about the conversation that I and hubby had. So, he beats me home, I went to the spa and got something’s done. He asks me if I wanted my presents so I got them, he got me an ipad-- I told him you didn't have to get me this( I already have one, but he wanted me to have the latest one out), I would prefer to just get good dick for my birthday. I instantly felt stupid, knowing what I know about everything. Begging for sex. I don’t want to do that. So he says oh I got that for you today. So it was on. It was good as usual. Well, the rest of my birthday was really nice, dinner and quiet time.

But.......I got dick, I even convinced him to make a movie with me. Well, I can’t help but think about dick today. I’m thinking I wonder if it is too soon to want more. You know I was thinking I would take some more pussy licking too. But I would need dick too. idk. I really think I have some serious sexual problems. Yesterday, was a good day, but I want more today?

So that brings me to my new (old) thought. I am not a cheater nor do I want to be (or do I). But I think I would like to. I know I’m thinking in my head, okay you can’t fuck up what you have its good. But I need more sex and so many of the things that I would like to do involve me and more than one other person. I know he don't want that. I don't think he could watch another man and me. I could watch him with another random chick. I think I have some type of perversion. I am a wife that wants my hubby to do another chick so that I can do the same. Not another chick. I’m not into pussy, I mean it’s on my list, but only because it’s something I have not done. I don't consider myself hetero-flexible; with the right amount of distractions I could do anything.
So that brings me to am I a sexual deviant on some level? And Am I am bad wife? I already know I’m not a very good Christian right now.




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