John Doe

Chronicles of a Drifter
2012-06-25 23:51:34 (UTC)

entry 104

All right so I don't even have anything to write about but I feel like I just need it right now. Its therapudic. I swear that's a word, I've seen it somewhere. Or maybe it was temperpedic? I don't know, and don't really give two fucks right now. I avoided my dad today because I didn't want to be there when my mom spilled those delicious beans that I made. God what a mess. And what a coward. I hope she did it already. Cause I just need this to be overwith. Well, I spent the rest of the day watching......did you guess it? Coming Out Stories videos on youtube. A lot of cute ass gay guys, and it kind of inspired me to come out a little. But if I ever acted upon this inspiation, especially at the time being, I could be put on the biggest idiot checklist, right at the top. I already know the reactions, these frickin religious, Mexican, folks aren't going to react as nicely as the white people parents. Hahaha, its always a joke. White people folks are the nicest, and every other race has some degree of strictness. Of course, we all know its a stereotype, but you have to admit its fucking hilarious. Stereotypes make the best jokes. I love sexist jokes, racist jokes, gay jokes, dark jokes, sex jokes. Blah blah blah, jokes are funny, point blank period. Some people are just super sensitive to them. But yeah, these guys were really good looking. Made me excited to be gay, cause if these are what are going to be in my backyard, then bam. Ill pack my bags and start mowing the lawn to spread these fools back there. there was this hot military stud, and of course the little twinks. All of em' were pretty charming. All of the coming out stories had happy endings, thankfully. Some took longer than others. Out of all of them, 2 of them were very touching. One was from this european kid that was tormented and bullied and he tried to commit suicide by jumping out the window. He also had anger issues so he lashed out at everyone that he even suspected made fun of him. I can understand him. Its hard not to get angry at everyone when you are getting chased home by 3 guys holding knives. And the other was by this guy that got caught by his dad kissing another guy, and then was beaten for the rest of the night. Boy, would I hate to be in those shoes. If my folks ever caught me kissing a dude id have a 10 lb shit weighing my pants down because I would shit bricks. Thankfully though, they had happy endings. Maybe ill get my happy ending too. I will. I believe it. It won't be the same happy, normal, happy ending that Jason has. But I'm going to triumph and make the best of what I'm going to get. I'm still jealous of him, for sure. But, what can ya do? I hope he gets the worst. I would say...hope he gets blown to pieces in the marines but...1.) That would be evil, and 2.) That would mean that my country is probably losing, and ill be speaking some crazy arabic language later when they take us over. I wish I could be friends with some of these. I have 10 unread text messages. None from Kix. That worries me. I'm losing my bud. I'm losing em' man. Ughh fuck...I have to go trough a fucking program tomorrow at the gym. Stupid a-hole doesn't let me use cardio machines. Fuck him. Fuck him hard. Well, whatever. Ill just ditch this entry for now. Laterz.




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