Jessicat

Wye Oak
2012-05-23 15:02:05 (UTC)

You sing a sad song just to turn it around...

Alright. So you all know how Matt is all like "I don't wanna date you yet cause incase i meet a girl on my trip i really like I don't wanna hurt you." Well it's bullshit. He just wants to get as much ass he can before he dates me, so he's all set.
Liana's boyfriend broke up with her for cheating, and she was all crying and shit. Whatever. I went upstairs and me and Matthew were there and we were doing just fine, until she came and started crying to him, and then sitting on him and trying to cuddle with him. But since I was there, he pushed her away. Then I went into the music room with Nicole since the band was playing, and then I went back out to go clean my stuff up in the hall, and when I left, they were there, his arm round her. Cuddling. Whatever. I gave practically all my food to Zoe, cause I was too upset to eat. Then I went back in. Then while I was in, the door opened and I looked out, Matthew asked for a big hug, then he left. In the morning, he gave me such a fucking fucktarded fucking hug. It's bullshit. That upset me. It really, really did. So I left, Liana and everyone was inside, I was in the hall alone, and I was near tears. I almost started crying, but I don't cry. Not at school, especially. But I couldn't see cause my eyes were full of tears.
The bell rang so I went to class, whatever. He hasn't messaged me since. After school, I was just so upset, I couldn't. I went to my locker, and when I went, no one was by the doors, but 20 seconds after i went back, Liana and Matthew were both there which gave me the conclusion they came down together. Whatever. I couldn't look at him, and I didn't. I just left.
I can't fucking handle it. I want to cry so badly.
I'm waiting for him to message me, and then I'm going to tell him. I really am going to tell him.




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