ideadangel23

Fallen from Grace
2012-05-23 12:46:41 (UTC)

Beautify my day.

This morning I woke up with a smile on my face. I am glad I have my Panda back in my life. I have rises and falls in this life. Had so much and lost more... Through it all Chaos brings me clarity. I finally have someone who understands my struggles. Through all my downward spiral I never thought she would be waitting to catch me when I walked out on her before. Sometimes I feel like I am wondering through life. Not sure if I am coming and going. She has given me a sense of direction. Yesterday I had been hasatating to say I love you. I want her so bad it makes my soul hurt.


I have recently found an innerpeace about myself. Sometimes I wonder if the world is truily a beautiful place... or is it a very ugly, misleading place. It seems when your in love its so beautiful everything is a blessing. You ever notice every breath is apprciated when your in love. Every sunset, sunrise, and star filled moon shine nights. They say: Beauty is not in the face; its in the light of the heart. My soul lights up like a light house latly. I used to hide behind a smile... Wearing it like a mask or clothes. I was at the point where the sky had lost its blue and the grass was no longer green but rather shades of grey. Ever breath was like a burden. When I was homeless in Daytona I would leave out of my spot every morning at 330 like clock work. I would go watch the sun rise over the ocean. It made me feel not so alone. It is very humbling to be amungst the foamy wave of the sea. Honestly when I got to Florida it felt as though my world was over. I left the place I had grown to call home and moved 2700 miles away to a place I had never been. I decided I was in pursuit of happiness. Well I found it... I left it behind in Oklahoma. So I cannot wait to get back to the other piece of my soul. I see the blessing of her love and It makes want to be better. Thanx for taking part in my passions this morning.




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