varsha

Journey towards dreams :)
2012-05-18 17:39:06 (UTC)

Feelings of being ignored.

Well, I love my boyfriend a lot & I know he loves me too. A few minutes earlier we skyped for 3 minutes when he told me he's gonna play his counterstrike. His parents are not home today, so we could have seized the opportunity to catch up old times as its been nearly two months we have not met and I miss him so much. I do understand the reason we are not meeting often because he has got exams and all & I completely understand that. But what hurts me the most is that he has time to meet friends every day and play games every night but he cannot dedicate a small 30 minutes for me during a skype talk. Even if I skype with him, he keeps checking his chat box and other things. He may think I do not notice it but I do. I know I'm being selfish and I should give him his space. I'm giving him :'(
I do not say anything when he meets up with his exes. I trust him and I really wish he will not wrong me. But in the meantime I feel left out and ignored. At the start of our relationship, he was after me every time and now, all of that has changed. :/
But still, I love him a lot. I will do whatever it takes to make him happy. He is also going through a crucial moment, he's reseating for his exams and I've been here a;ways for him. I don't know what to do and think. All I think is I'm a horrible girlfriend and that I'm being selfish. Am I? I cry every night thinking of all those nights he used to call me. :'(
Maybe I do not arouse the same feelings in his heart any more or I do not do much to make him happy? I don't know.

I just miss him loads & I wish he could be here with me right now.




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