OliveOil

Journal to no where
2012-05-10 19:29:26 (UTC)

eeeekkk

so i just woke up from my long ass nap, and noticed my phone was nottttt next to me! i started freaking out like FREAKING out went on all these websites to call my phone from the computer and stuff emailing my mom like crazy she finally got back to me and told me she fuckin accidentally grabbed it, like fuck i hopeeeee jj does not text me today! i will be done for. and I'm pretty sure my mom knows the password to my phone. little sneaky bitch. now I'm having trouble on what i should eat. i know i should eat something but my fear of gaining weight is fucking with my head making me not hungry putting my body into starvation mode. FUCK. i hope kelseys doing alright i can't stop crying sometimes. fuck me, and her sister sees right through me she still knows i never plan to get clean, i know it. i hope she doesn't hate me i really hope she doesn't. i really want the best for kelsey. honestly. thats like family, she knows everything about me! and i know everything about her and she knows the truth truth. god why do i fuck everything up really why do i fuck everything up.


i need a puppy to love and care for i really do. i have to stop thinking and i can't. I FUCKIN CANT. and its making me sick, sick to the fuckin head.

this battle with hunger is killing me i feel like I'm always loosing to something. I'm never appreciated everyone uses me. its the truth. I honestly don't even know who i am, who the fuck am i , . I'm WEIRDOO with weird thoughts. i just cry like why? i need to stop fuckin crying. i can't wait for saterday to get so fucked up, haven't done acid in a while wahoooo




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