Well, I've been trying to have a life. I've gotten closer to the friends I've known and managed to get more new friends. Crappy thing about this is that I haven't been able to have any romantic relationships. All the women friends I've shown any interest in has put me in their "friend zone". I hate friend zones. Maybe I'm too shallow but I don't want to settle too.
Just last night, another nice lady put my advances into the friend zone. I'm a little hurt. She's the one that actually invited me to go to our group wine tasting in Amador in the first place. I thought maybe we could take it a step further. I hate this friend zone shit!!
2012 has not panned out as well as I had hoped. Financially, I got hit with some large medical bills from the Ex and the Ex's kids. Some of the bills I managed to dodge, some I weren't able to. Out of frustration and telling myself wtf, I financed an suv. I figure since I can't get my home this or next year, I may as well enjoy life a little.
Haven't seen the 9 and 6 year old since Thanksgiving. I miss them but what can I do? It is what it is. Not the best moment for me right now. I have no choice but to keep doing what I feel is right. This sucks. Why does doing the right thing have to be so lonely? Getting really tired of this.