Cheap. So cheap. So fucking stupid.
So wrong, so helpless.
So creepy. So humiliated..
I want to commit suicide. Usually i say these things as a joke...but it's starting to reach into my heart. This stupid shit. Every time I try to fix it...i lost jose. I'm fighting with ify. i'm nowhere close to having my normal life back.
JD was right. I need to mature. And...ify agrees now. Shows how much i'm fucking up things.
I can stop this....i can stop.