Eel

Esperando

I was waiting, so long...
So long to talk to him.
He was on the first floor of the library.
Then he said he had to take tennis pictures...

So crushed. It's not that I know he's not gay...it's that he's been put into this position of avoiding me. And I am always more broken.

The guy with the afro told me his name was chris. I like chris..he is chill. I wish everyone was like chris. So mellow and carefree. Chris looks so nice too.

Phil looked the same way, and I fell in love with him, but I didn't give in to being desperate and insane. Instead...

...i want to fix, everything. The friendship...james almost had,taken....from me. I want to be...

Phil's friend. And continue to keep getting stronger along the way...

James still, hasn't destroyed me.yet. # try