MzChristy

Diary of a Mad Woman
2012-03-29 06:37:57 (UTC)

fugly duckling girls like me :'(

Well last nice I finally got to the bottom of it. That stupid gay jerk Trey finally admitted what I alFreakinReady knew. Of course that when we went out that nite, there wasn't a "spark" like he'd hoped for, blah Fucking blah blahhhh.
So neway WTF is wrong with me? I really am the fugly duckling girl, aren't I? I really am that damn repulsive n unattractive! Well, they seem to like me just fine till the damn fucking 1st date. After that, suddenly they dnt want me nemore. Well u no what then? I'll try 1 more time with 1 more dude. If it happens again I quit. Its in God's hands. If He dnt want me to ever have neone, fine. I'm done with this stupid bs of being rejected n made to feel like an ugly dog by stupid gay fickle ass dudes. Smh.
I hate to cuss n bring up God's name in the same entry, but I can't help it. I'm pissed. It is enought to make a preacher cuss. I just feel like a pile of ugly ass shit. It aint rite that ne man should make me feel that bad about myself but I can't help it. Its becoming a pattern. I am a love pariah, rejected over and over by men. I am ugly. I am a freak. I am a wierdo. My gut's telling me to just throw in the towel. I guess maybe I will. :((




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