heather renee
2012-03-26 06:09:36 (UTC)

feeling lost

Its been 34 days since you've been gone. i cant take the pain sometimes and i can never seem to grieve there's always something else that needs to be done, or i cant take upsetting my girls. i have to admit i have never felt so alone in my life. the nights we would lay in your bed and talk about everything and nothing, i miss it. you were more than my Nana you were in so many ways my mom my best friend in some ways my soul mate i found that one point in another that made me feel complete ... and now it is all gone. i worry i am the reason things are going so wrong since you were so often the only one that could be so perfectly honest with me. i spent a great deal of my childhood with your whispers in my ears preparing me for this. but even now at almost 25 I'm not ready to accept it. i cant do this without you , your were my rainbow in a otherwise meloncoly life

this diary is meant to be away to get all the things out that i cant hold in and since my Nana passed February 22 2012 i will no longer have a confidant

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