Message from my wife:-
FYI - Going for a spa break with the girls next weekend.
As an aside, I am planning on taking a number of short breaks this year to Europe – maybe starting with Milan or Paris in the summer. I have always wanted to do some solo travelling, and don’t want to put it off any longer as life is too short.
How solo are these trips going to be? It breaks my heart. I think I am fighting a lost battle and may be she is right...this ship has long sailed. I am broken for the first time in my life, I think I am badly broken and have lost the most important thing in my life. I have to live with the consequences of my action so although i am shaking, crying and weak, I have to be strong for my children. Not sure how I will cope in months to cme but it is clear that I have to focus on the things hav always wanted to do that is my business, my career, my fitness, my discipline etc. I will try abd concentrate on this. I have failed on my marriage, I am a dissapointment I just now need to try and make the bes of what I have left.