my thoughts

My Journey
2012-02-27 06:11:07 (UTC)

day was not perfect,but okay

I'm glad the day is over. It seemed long and dreary but not as bad as it could have been I guess.

I just hate that I didn't get to see my daughter today, I really missed that. Hopefully I will have dinner with her this coming Wednesday.

Hubby's son didn't come for his Sunday visit. Just as I thought he wouldn't. I tried to tell hubby yesterday that he probably wouldn't come, but he insisted he would. Yesterday, hubby went to his cousin's house to pick up a tv to repair for him and I mentioned that since he would be near his mother's house, why didn't we just go and visit, and, it would free me up to see my daughter on Sunday, like I usually do. But, like I said, he insisted that his son would be here today and he wanted to take him along for the visit at his parents' house. So, we didn't go visit yesterday, his son didn't come along, and I didn't get to see my daughter. I'm not very happy with all that. Hubby's mother wasn't quite as snotty with me today as she can be, so that was a little more tolerable. Oh yes, she still managed to get a few jabs in, here and there, but I mostly ignored them. She gave me three boxes of crafting supplies that she said I "could make Christmas gifts with". Actually it is crap her daughter gave her and she didn't want it, so she passed it on to me. Whatever. Most of it will probably end up in the trash. But I took it from her, more or less to keep hubby off my back.

I am looking forward to seeing my daughter on Wednesday. She won't be free Mon or Tues, she has afterschool tutoring she is teaching, and won't be free until Wed evening. Hubby heard me talking on the phone with her and heard me making the Wednesday plans. When I got off the phone, he asked me why was I meeting her on wednesday, he wanted to know if that was "going to be a make-up day". I told him no, not really, just that since I couldn't see her today, then I would later in the week. I asked him if he had a problem with that. He got all in defense mode and bit my head off. He said it wouldn't matter anyway, if he a problem with it or not, I would do it anyway. Oh, for God's sake, GROW UP!!! Or at least back off. I would understand if he got pissed off if I made plans to be with her everyday, every evening, and not with him. But this is ONE DAY!! one stinking day. He expected me to be there with him today and I was. Its not MY fault his son doesn't want to be with him. If he wasn't so freaking overbearing and bossy then maybe.....

I will leave it at that. It is a really complicated situation between him and his son, something I don't know how to fix or even how to handle anymore. So I don't try to anymore. The two of them need to figure it out. I am not my hubby's keeper, no matter how much he THINKS I am, and I am not his son's mother. I'm just the maid, shopper, cleaner, cook, nurse,bill payer, etc. Nothing more.

I'm also frustrated, agitated, taken for granted, tired. Something has got to give. I don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling this way. I'm miserable. there, I said it. until later.......




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