Eel

Started Out

i feel like an idiot.
a
fail.
a
loser.
underachiever.
no good
dumbass,
nonathletic,
ugly
stupid
unbelonging bitch.

every time i see someone i know
i can basically hear how much
they hate me in their head.

i want to crawl in a corner and die.
just want to sit in a hidden area
and not exist.

everyone will get over it. just like everyone else did.
my risks of dying are just like infinity to one anyway.
i hate that i'm alive
i just want to hug him
i just want to die
just want to cry.

just wants to stop living.