Crashing-Walls

Whispered Claims of Love
2012-02-04 19:08:03 (UTC)

Tonight.

Well, tonight is the aurora dance.
I'm avoiding facebook because of the thousands posts about it. I shouldn't be sad, I chose not to go. I would have been going if Shelby hadn't ditched me. But I'm also excited to hang out with Olivia tonight, so there's no need to pout about it.

I think for now I'm just going to do my spanish homework, even if I already know spanish, read the Hunger Games and roleplay until it's time to go to her house. That's basically what I do on my saturdays. I really don't have a life, but you know what? If I'm happy doing this, then i'm happy. Also, I wouldn't want to go to parties every weekend, I usually just use my weekends as time for sleep, I'm too tired from the week ahead to usually do anything anyways.

Oh.
And a other thing.
Sage.

Okay.
So, the day that I found out that she has made some bad decisions with her boyfriend, (At the time they weren't even going out for a month) I tried to talk to her about it. Because she expected me to be the kind of person who isn't perverted, or who is contained with that kind of stuff, when I'm probably the least innocent between our group of friends. Anyways, she had done these things with her boyfriend, and I was trying to talk to her about it, just easing it onto her that I knew she had made these bad decisions with him, when I should've really been telling her that what she has done is horrible. She doesn't even sit with us at lunch even more, and you know what? It's kind of less stressful when she doesn't because then all of don't have to worry about talking to her, because all she does is sit there and sulk. And then she complains that we don't talk to her whenever she's the one who makes it practically impossible to approach. She's just too quiet, and she never tries to involve herself in conversation. So when she is there, everyone just forgets shes there. We don't forget her on purpose, she's just easy not to notice because she doesn't talk much. Anyways, I used to be the only, and I mean the only fucking friend she had in our little circle who told her that I'll listen to anything she has to say, and she can ask me for advice and talk to me about anything, because I can relate to everything she is going through right now. And in her diary she says stuff about how she doesn't even believe me when I say that. Okay? Okay, seriously Sage? I'm the only one who says that, and when I do say that I say it from my heart, but you know what now? You can go be alone. If you don't believe my words, and me caring for you, then I'm not even going to try anymore. Why should I? I know any normal person who didn't have any close friends like that would've believe me. I would've hung out with you. Fuck, I even took you to the mall the next day, and we hung out all day together and talked, and you still don't believe me? Well, we were talking the other day, when Sage wasn't there, and how everyone's scared for her, because when she does lose Chris, which is going to happen no matter how much she thinks it's not, she's not going to have anything. And how I'm not going to accept her when she comes crawling back sit with us at lunch, because frankly, if you just need us to comfort you when you don't have this amazing boyfriend anymore, than I'm not going to deal with it. You can go be with your boyfriend, who only wants you for your vagina. I don't care how much you say about how much he cares about you, because he might care for you, but if he's making you do that crap in only three weeks of you two going out, then there's something up. You're getting played Sage. And if you still think you aren't then, whatever. Oh, and did I mention he's three years older than her? In a year, it's going to be illegal for them to date. But I bet you that's not going to stop them. But you know, if you guys do make it through this whole year, and then his whole year of him being a senior, do you guys really think you're going to make it through him leaving off and going to college? I don't think you are. Because sadly, he's probably going to run off and meet some college girl, and actually fall in love. And then you'll be heartbroken. Sage still has three years left in highschool, you really think he's going to wait for you? Bullshit.

Frankly, I'm going to laugh when you guys break up.
Because even when you were going out with Gabriel, you didn't think he was a jerk, and he wasn't going to hurt you.
Sage just has a hard time seeing reality.
That's my rant for today.
Well that's all for now, bye.




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