lyricsoraven

what i Hear,See,Think,Live
2012-01-23 07:18:49 (UTC)

My weekend.

Okay, so my weekend has been filled with odd ass people aka my friends.
Erique, Joey, Brandon, and I hung out with Sadie and Bri(My gf).
Our weekend was crazy theres things that no one on this earth will do inless your looking for my group of mother fuckers then you can finally stop your search.

Thought 1:
Bri and I go back out of course here goes the cycle of lies oh no not on my side on hers, I know for a fact she'll cheat on me again or come up there most fake ass shit you can hear of. Why are we back together?
I honestly have no clue I'm scared as fuck she'll be the same little girl I dated in 2010, anyone who can see my past entries you'll know who I'm talking about.
Shes untrustworthy it breaks my heart how someone can be so.. so damn fucked up like I cant hurt people like she can no way in hell, but thats how she is I cant change it I can try but she doesnt love me enough to change even though we had a tough past if she could go back I bet thats the last thing she'd change.
Thought 2:
Brandon decided to hint it off and pretty much straight up told me he wanted my vagina (I totally had to re type that word)("I cant even spell my own body part!")
Back to what I was saying, oh yea Brandon he has a gf not giving out her name but she treats him like shit but shes my tumblr buddy and she can be a real sweetheart. I have no feelings for him at all but I will be honest we have hooked up once when we were DRUNK other then that no attractions except his humor, hes really funny but not my type dont get me wrong hes not a ugly man eating human hes just ehh to me uhm like a creepy brother who wants to have le sexy time INSEST-ish.

Thought 3:
So even though Erique (pronounced "Eric") is hovering over me because I also watched him type in his journal(cute), I have mentioned him in a entry before as anonymous I had a crush on him we were like hook up buddies creepy right? Just playing I love him hes my bestfriend and to be honest his not the kind of bestfriend who's stuck "in the friend zone" we oddly hook up time to time but hey what the hell right?
I saw how he mentioned how he "likes" not "liked" likes me and thats pretty darn cute if you ask me. I honestly dont know if he "likes" me or think he does because were so close ya know? Shit happens that way and this is the friendship you'd never want to fuck with (:
I can honestly say I know I like Bri but thats because shes my first love but I dont want her, I'm over Amanda I just miss our memories and Brooke nope never going to at least not soon but Erique I do love him.
I dont mean love in just a friend way I can honestly say I think about us being together from time to time I dont know if its my insecurity that kept me from trying to hint it off in the pass yea yea hes reading it as I write so we both know how we feel for each other.
I think me being guy-ish keeps me away from most guys like I guess some guys think its cute and what not but it scares me that the guy side of me and I dont mean I think I'm a man I mean how I ant like one of guys some time in that "straight" relationship a guy will think its overwhelming.

Thought 4:
I am not a cheater or anything but I think about it a lot I dont mean with everyone I mean Bri I dont know if I want to cheat on her because I want her to feel the pain she gave me or it's the thought of being with her is not the right thing considering the fact I dont want to be with her or in a relationship at all I dont know if its because I just got out a relationship within a month or the fact I wont let what Bri to me go. Either way I dont want to force myself to like someone who dosnt or didnt deserve my love.

Enjoy the "Diary of a teenager"
Been thinking of making a book (;
Love
Lyric




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