Amber

Just how I feel
2012-01-22 07:50:59 (UTC)

First (Online) Diary Entry

So...I don't think I've ever had an online diary before. But.....I feel like this is a better way for me to vent. I just finished the movie "Courageous". It is a christian movie. Before I go any further.......I just want to say that I am NOT a christian. I don't "necessarily" speak of God or serving Him. I respect all religions. But I can actually say that I am NOT a christian.

But this movie inspired me.


Of course, it's christian based. The entire movie speaks of God and quotes scriptures. But I really feel like you don't have to be entirely religious to grasp the concept of this movie. It sends the most positive life message......to get you to open your eyes a little. It mainly focuses on fathers and how a father parents his children greatly affects how that child will be in society. And greatly affects what kind of a person his child will become to be.
I relate alot of this movie because of the way I grew up. And because of the things that are going on in my life right now as I'm typing. This movie is what made me realize I need to start dealing with my own internal problems, so I can be the best mother and wife I possibly can be. To me, raising my daughter to be a good person full of morals and good values.....is my ultimate goal in life. And once again, this has nothing to do with being "christian", or of ANY type of religion. My beliefs are that you can raise a child to be a good person and change the world.....without forcing religion down their throat. My daughter will choose her religion when she is ready. But once again, I respect all religions.


After watching the movie, I feel like I need to vent in a diary. I think after getting all of my emotions out little by little, I can make myself heal from things that have happened in my life. Once I heal, that means I better myself. A better me.....means being a better mother and wife.


So this is my first online diary entry. I don't care if anyone reads. I just need to get my thoughts out somewhere other than facebook (lol). I know that no one REALLY cares about my life or my problems besides my CLOSE family and maybe a few friends. However, I think it would be nice to get feedback. I'm kind of curious to know what others might say. :) Goodnight for now!




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