sexyfroglady

this is my life?
2012-01-10 06:55:43 (UTC)

i hit a dog tonight...

well,the trip to the store was uneventful. no stress,other than spending too much. small town stores can afford to jack their prices up,and people wont complain too much.
we got everything we needed,and headed home.
remember,earlier,i said i hated going anywhere in the dark? i especially hate driving in the dark.
even more so,in the country.
ya never know when something is gonna dart out in front of you.
it happened tonight.
we were about 3 miles from home,and just enjoying the golden,full moon.
all of a sudden,becca yells,"mom! the dog!". i just barely seen a glimpse of something really big,right in front of my car,and i couldnt stop in time.
i slammed on my brakes,but i still hit it.
then,i ran over it.
i was so worried about the dog,i didnt even hear other vehicles squealing their tires,nor did i feel the two slams of another vehicle ramming into me.
i was hit from behind,by an suv,it bumped me a few feet up the road.
the suv was hit from behind,by a truck,causing the suv to hit me again,pushing me down the road a little bit more.
i managed to pull to the side of the road,becca and i both got out of the car,and thats when i realized that we were hit,by the suv.
of course,i started having a panic attack,my chest was hurting,i was crying,and was really short of breath.
everyone involved was okay,thank God.
everyone but the dog.
there is just no way it could have survived.
we couldnt find him though,so my daughter is holding onto the possibility that it MIGHT be all right.
i hope so. i am heart broken over this damn dog,that came out of nowhere.
the owner of the suv called the cops,an officer came out,and helped us to all exchange information.
there goes my perfect driving record...
i did not get a ticket,though.
thank God we had insurance. how many times did i drive down that road,without it? many...for almost a month,i didnt have any.
thank God we didnt have any of the babies with us. they are not allowed in my car,until i can get another one. i have a cracked hub bearing,on the passenger front wheel. it is dangerous,because at any time,the whole wheel could just fall off,causing major damage,and possible injuries,or worse.
the officer told us we could all go home,so i drove very slowly.
there is a loud,knocking sound coming from that wheel now.
i am scared to go anywhere,and i have an appointment tomorrow,at 11 am,for counseling. it is about 60 miles away,in tulsa.
i am thinking that maybe i should cancel the appointment.
at times like this,i wonder about my decision to move to the country.
if i were still in tulsa,i could at least take the bus. here,there is no bus option. i have no friends out here,none that would be willing to drive that far anyway,at no charge.
and i just filled the gas tank,too. haha just my luck.
i guess instead of complaining,i should be thanking God,that everyone was ok. it could have been so much worse.
so,for now,my sadness over my daughter,jess,moving,has been temporarily replaced by this accident,and the new fears and worries about the safetyness of my car.
i am going to try and turn my brain off,and get some sleep. it is 1:30 am. i have smoked WAY too many cigs,still have a headache,and am mentally wired,but exhausted at the same time.
i took two 800 mg ibuprofin,and have had a glass of herbal,sleepytime tea,so hopefully,i can at least get a couple hours in.
tomorrow morning i have to call the insurance company,and in a few days,the police report will be ready.
i will decide in the morning,what to do about counseling...




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