Aeryn Sun

Uncharted Territories
2011-12-11 21:56:38 (UTC)

Should I give up or just keep on chasing pavements

I'm ready... for a serious relationship that is. I'm finally ready, but that doesn't mean that I'm not gonna be nervous abt it and not have 2nd thoughts if something were to start w/ someone. I'm done running, done making up excuses as to why I can't have a relationship. I'm trying to wait though, to make sure that I don't go for the first thing that comes along just b/c I like the idea of someone being interested in me.

So I finally found someone that I like that I thought I could possibly have a chance with. He's in my squadron... but he's married. Sucks. Dude doesn't even wear his wedding ring, fucking misleading, [sigh]. I refused to ask any of my coworkers whether this guy was available or not, didn't want them to get any ideas. I was going to wait until the holiday party on Friday, see if he brought a date, but today I went in to work and he was there. We chatted and it came out that he's married. My, was I shocked. Why? Why does he have to be married???

I finally found someone that I liked, w/o anything physical getting involved. Not fair. I have a theory that my perfect guy will have been born in '82 (the 2 serious relationships I've had - Mareb and SD - were both born in '82) and this guy is a Taurus, born in '82. Horoscopes said that my perfect match would be with a Taurus. Why he gotta be taken?

I guess today proved that I don't have to wait around for just any guy to come my way, I can still find guys that I'm interested in and go after them. I have seriously be doubting my abilities lately, even though I'm optimistic that one day a great guy will come along. Maybe next yr, it is a leap year after all.




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