Ana

Dairy of an Anorexic Girl
2011-12-04 21:27:29 (UTC)

Good Day

Today has been a pretty good day, for the most part. I still haven't bee very hungry. I ate half an small apple this morning (about 40 calories), and a cup of black spice chai tea (0 calories). I lost another lbs yesterday, which I am happy about. But what made today nice, was being able to forget about life for a little bit.
I ate half an apple and some tea, which filled me up (so I was comfertable enough to relax) and then I went for a long walk and listened to some music. I sat by a stream a few miles from my house. It was a nice break. I felt almost normal. I didn't feel empty, I didn't feel dizzy, and for a few hours, I was very happy.
Listening to happy music usually does that to me. My stomach hurts again now, but it's okay. I got a few hours of peace. I think I will have a veggie burger (70 calories) before I go out tonight, just to give my body some nutrients. Veggie burgers are full of protein, which I really need. I take vitamins for most of the other nutrients that I need, but there aren't pills for protien. I will probably have a small salad (30 calories) too. I'm trying to eat. I don't want to completely starve myself... I just want to lose a few more lbs.
But, the main point of today is that I am happy. I am very glad to be happy. I like smiling, and I missed smiling. I hope this day keeps bringing smiles to my face:) Oh, and thank you to the people who have sent me encouraging messages. Your messages are one of the little things that get me through the day:)
Stay strong and beautiful everyone<3




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