Dear Zach

Dear Zach
2011-12-03 06:51:52 (UTC)

Letter 2.

Dear Zach,
I am trying so hard to be strong for you. Because I don't want you to know I'm sad and I don't want to cry and get all emotional like I was at the start of my heartache. Honestly, it kills me inside to know that she's the one you love and want to be with. I know I need to just back off and let you be. I feel like it's time for me to just give up because you know how I feel, but it doesn't change a thing. I don't know why it's so hard for me to let go. I'm holding onto something that is only real for me.. Something that used to be real to you and me, both. Maybe I'm attached to you in a way that it's unhealthy. Maybe my obsession, is the love you gave to me. Maybe you're the only thing that's ever on my mind. Maybe I still hold the necklace tight and talk to God about you.. But it's only because I love you.. And it still hurts knowing that I lost your love. Some days I feel like I'm invisible to you. I hate that feeling. I feel like I'm trying so hard for you to see how I feel, but you just don't realize. Maybe one day.. Hopefully one day.. You'll realize how much you meant to me. The thing is, I can't wait forever for someone who doesn't feel the same way I do. But I can promise you, that I'll love you forever. That is one thing that will never change. No matter who's holding me. No matter who's lips are on mine.. I'm always going to love you. I've never felt this way about anyone else before. I've been attached before.. But not this strongly. There is something about your love, that I just can't explain. .. But I love you. And I miss the Love we shared.