Big Girl Panties
Once Again I find myself in a place where I have to put on my big girl panties. While I understand this to be an exciting time for a female toddler, as a 25 year old woman excitement is far from what I am feeling. However, in my attempt to think positively, I remember all the other times in my life in which I decided to put on my big girl panties and I understand that I will be just fine, but right now I'm not okay. Right now my heart is broken, my hands are shaking and I am fighting to hold back years of tears filled with the fear of having to put myself back together again. Right now I'm not okay. Right now, I want to give into my tears that are filled with years of situations that resulted in me having to put on my big girl panties and leave a piece of my heart behind. This life is a rocky road to a peace of mind, and as I make this journey to be just fine, today, I'm not okay.