Experienced Life
2011-11-24 08:17:10 (UTC)

What have I done this year?

Well, I know it's not the new year but I Thanksgiving is a time to recollect your thoughts and see what you're thankful for. So here I am.
What the hell have I done or accomplished this year? Not a whole hell of a lot!

The drama has toned down for sure. So is this the highlight of my year? Not complaining since 2008, 2009 and 2010 really was one of the worse years of my life. Yes, my life. I think 2009 was probably the worse. Still the beginning of a nightmare and the tail end of it doesn't make it all that better.

I recollect the adultery, divorce, the DNA test that showed my son wasn't mine, the loss of my house, Ch 7, and just recently found out that my future ex boss was in now way going to promote me anytime soon. He just lied about it.

I also just saw my home that I bought and lost and see that it's been sold. I look at all the hard work and money I poured into that home. Now it just sold for a measly 246K. Shit!!! If the bank would have given me that price, I would have jumped on it and would still be living there right now. I know, I know, it's my fault for not keeping up with the 446K mortgage.

Did I find any romance this year? NOPE!!! What did I accomplish this year? Mostly just a lull in the Drama from the ex. I think I've changed a bit. For the better? Dunno. Maybe got colder. Not too phased by her antics anymore. Not much really phases me anymore. Kinda sad really. I remember how I used to be.

Emotions. Emotions are what makes a person. It's what you fight and live for in life. The feelings you'd feel in sports, relations, friends. If not for what you feel, then why bother? So now I'm in a crossroad. I am able to control my emotions way more than most people. This is not normal. I think it's what happens when you face harsh situations. You deal with it or go crazy.

The only thing that I was able to do was get that promotion. Then again, I do have the kids a lot now and being in their lives is pretty awesome. It would be nice to wake up to someone special to in the morning but it's also pretty cool to see kids wake up and come to you first thing in the morning for that life's guidance or maybe to turn on the TV to watch morning toons. :)