KMW

who am i to question life?
2011-11-20 00:41:20 (UTC)

he's in my head.

what the hell is wrong with me?
that conversation is still bothering me. driving me nuts, really.

i don't like him. Not at all.
but now he's back to being on my mind. all the time, uncontrollably.

i've run into him way too many times and my heart stops each one.
just that sick feeling.
he caused it. why can't he just leave me alone for good?
i shut him out and moved on.
and he came back as soon as i was happy.

i only have myself to blame for talking to him, i guess.
i just missed him. a lot.

we were so close for such a long time..
he knows everything about me and vice versa.

yes, he was right. i really did miss talking to him.

but the things he said made me doubt what i thought.
i wonder what i'd do.
what i'd do if he tried to kiss me when we were all alone.
i don't know anymore. i just don't know.

a month ago, i would've said "slap him", at least 'push him away"
but i'm not sure.
just the fact i have to consider an answer is terrible.

is this what he meant to do?
to get into my head?
haunt me?

well he did it. he's in my head and i can't get him out.




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