The Laughter Inside My Mind
2011-11-16 21:16:58 (UTC)

Slowly letting go

Slowly i am letting go; it is bringing back past memories like no other and i find myself fighting inside my head; screaming "oh my GOD just get the fuck over it", this is sad to say, but i know that i have a small part of him; he tells me he only does certain things because if i don't then i get all hysterical about it! like i have him send me money and he does! i have to have a REAL good reason to get that money or maybe he does it so I'll shut the fuck up and really leave him alone!
I will gain his friendship/trust back and even if we never see each other face to face again no matter how much it kills me; just to get a hello once in awhile will still make me happy and i will know that he is alright!
I skipped the gym today, but i went yesterday and Monday, so I'm not at a total lose! I'll be fat forever! well not FAT FAT, just fucking flabby all over no matter what i do!
Death sounds so wonderful at this very moment!


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