morgun

Perfect Imperfections
2011-10-31 02:18:37 (UTC)

Through My Teen Eyes

I have no clue what the hell I'm going to do with my life. Is this normal? I'm a junior. I should have plans, aspirations, dreams. All I got is what I'm going to do Friday night. Does any other teenager have this problem? I have so much going on to even think about my future. First off, I fear that I am a compulsive liar. I lie about little things. I just lie so easy. I lie to my friends, my family, my boyfriend. I wish I knew why. I lie about things that don't even matter. To make matters worse, I crave attention from the people I love the most. Hence, why my lying comes into play. I lie to keep conversations going. I lie to keep people interested in to what it is I am saying. I lie so I can be who people WANT me to be. Not who I want to me. Hell, I don't even know really who I am. I'm a combined effort of everyone I have ever came in contact with. Only problem is, is that a good thing or a bad thing?

I have had an amazing boyfriend for 1 year and 6 months. I'm very blessed to have him. Though, before he came along I did have a few go a rounds with previous boys and hopefully my dating tips will help girls distinguish between the keepers and the losers. Also, I've realized what it takes to keep a relationship going. Love without trust is a half-hearted effort. If you want a relationship to succeed, you have to be willing to give it your all. You can't just rely on a man to do everything for you; and you can't just go into a relationship half-hearted if you the person you're with is going all in. Either dive in or sit back down, don't hang around in the shallow end. Also, if all a guy wants is your breasts, legs, and thighs? Send is ass packing to KFC. You deserve more than that. Find that guy that will pick up every piece of your shattered heart and put it back together; Replacing it with a piece of his.

I really do try hard to be a good person. I try to be there for a people when they need somebody, because I know how bad it sucks when you have no one there for you. Honestly, I'm starting this journal because I think it will help find out who I am and who I want to be. Plus, maybe I'll help others on my journey through teen life.

- Morgan




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