NotSoSadSadie
The Laughter Inside My Mind
Why?
I often wonder why i do and say the things i do. Karma is going to bite me in the ass BIG time and i won't have anyone to blame but myself, no matter what i say or do; he's NOT coming back my way, I have done and said too many evil things for that to happen so why in the world to i make little attempts? there MUST be something wrong with me to keep doing that!!
Am i EVER going to be happy or am i destined to be in the dark forever? I guess if i keep feeling and thinking this way then i am right?
I want to die most days; maybe i should!!
I don't believe anyone will really mourn me; I have lost about 7 people in the last two years and i watch how people forget and go on already; so I know I'll just be a memory that will fade fast!!
I don't have anybody really; so that is why i write here, to try and get it all out, to look back; to see if i have accomplished anything thus far! NOPE i still want to just fucking end everything most days!!
I'm going to take a shower!!
Later,
Sadie
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