Jessicat

Wye Oak
2011-10-21 18:47:39 (UTC)

Dreams?

Out of all the dreams I've had last night, including being robbed, being chased, powers, school, life... Just, one dream... It's just...
Put it this way. I must've mentioned my Monster. If not, someone give me feedback if they want me to put an entry of my monster. I believe my monster is IN me now. This dream may relate to it.


So My mom was beside me on my left, and to her left was Jim. Michael was in front of us. The grass was really green. Like, fresh, morning dew green. There was a grave stone, there was a death. I remember we were wearing black. We were in mourning. It may have been Michael's birthday, I remember getting that vibe. I remember, in front of the grave, and the grave was a flat one, it wasn't a big grave stone. No, it was just a stone in the ground. In front of the grave, there were really yellow dandelions. They were really, really yellow.
I was crouched down, so was my mom, and I think Jim was too. Then we told Michael to go pick the dandelions. So he did... And I started crying. It was, there was a loss, and there was a resemblance with Michael and someone. I remember saying, "But it isn't him!" while crying.

This dream is just, bothering me.

Now read the dream dictionaries interpretations:

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Grass
To see green grass in your dream suggests that there is a part of yourself that you can always rely on. The dream is also symbolic of natural protection. Also consider the phrase "the grass is always greener on the other side." Do you always compare yourself with others and look at what other people have?

Headstone
To see a headstone in your dream represents a forgotten or buried aspect of yourself which you need to acknowledge. Consider also the message on the headstone. It may indicate a statement about your life and its condition

Grave
To dream that you are at a grave indicates that you need to delve into your own unconscious in search of an issue that you thought had been put to rest. You need to stand up for yourself for no one else can do it for you. Alternatively, it represents something is about to be completed in your life. You are leaving behind the old and making a new start. The dream may also be a pun on feeling grave or concerns about a serious or sad situation.

Dandelion
To see dandelions in your dream represent pleasant and joyous surroundings. You are content with where you are at in life. Alternatively, the dream seeks to bring your back to your childhood and past memories.

Yellow
On the other hand, if the dream is an unpleasant one, then the color represents deceit, disgrace, betrayal, cowardice and sickness. You have a fear or an inability to make a decision or to take action. Your desire to please others is at the risk of sacrificing your own needs and happiness. As a result, you are experiencing many setbacks.

Flowers
If you are picking flowers, then the dream symbolizes blooming love or a new developing relationship.

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Green. Graves. Yellow Dandelions. Michael.

I think I know what it means.

The grave stone is me. It's who I am. I'm becoming someone else. The grass was really green, I'm in the ground, I am dead. My personality is dead. The grass is growing all around, however, and I think it means I can always go back, and rely on that personality, but it's in the ground, therefor I cannot. The yellow dandelions is of my past. It's of my childhood memories. We all know my childhood wasn't good. My childhood was horrible. To be honest, I haven't thought of my childhood for a long, long time. Ever since I started school. Michael is picking the flowers because we told him to. He is taking away my ability to make decisions, hence trouble at home doing homework. I'm trying to make everyone happy, but I'm trying to make myself happy, because to be honest, the thought of suicide is coming into my head again, and it's slowly taunting me. Michael was picking the flowers. The 'new relationship' is becoming hatred, with him. I am too content with where my life is right now. You can say I am happy. Well not really happy... I'm just content. I'm comfortable. I'm afraid my monster is going to come back...




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