LL1039

One for the razorbacks
2011-10-20 01:14:13 (UTC)

Well, this is my first entry,..

Well, this is my first entry, so I guess I have to start telling who I am and at least something about my story.
I'm a brazilian girl. I love Green Day with all my heart, like no one in this entire planet love somebody. Billie, Tre and Mike are like a family, and I love them so much. They've saved me and helped me so many times in my life I can't even thank them enough, and I'll never can.
I'm always feeling alone, and I hate it so much. I have no friends. I have no one to share my pain and sadness and I have nowhere to go and nothing to do about it. I feel empty and tired. It's like I'm dying.
All I want is someone to be here with me, to tell me it's okay. I have to be strong for myself, because no one is going to fix me... For once, I just want it to be easy. I want to be helped, to be saved, but I know I won't and it hurts me so much.
My mom and my dad are always fighting. I hate how my dad treats my mom, it's like they're not even married! And it hurts me so much to see my mom sad. She's the greatest. I can't tell you she's like my best friend or something, cause my mom doesn't know SO MANY things about me, but at least she tries... She really tries. She once cried because of my depression, and it broke my heart. I love her so much.
I have a really dirty mind, and I can't define my sexuality. I always say I'm a boy in a girl's body. Everytime I tell myself I'm a boy, I feel way better and I can accept myself. So I like to say that I have a male soul. I'm not kinda proud of it, cause I think women are better than men. But it's the true: I should have born a guy. You know what is interesting? My mom wanted a boy when she was pregnant! That's why there's a guy living inside of me...
I love punk rock, it's my favorite music style. I know Green Day doesn't play punk rock songs anymore, and it hurts me so much... My favorite Green Day album is Kerplunk! I L-O-V-E Kerplunk! more than I love my entire family. Y'know, Green Day to me is the most special thing that I have in my life. My dream is to tell them how much I love them. Green Day is the only thing that I really have.
I know it's impossible to someone be reading this, but I love to talk about myself, so whatever.
My favorite TV show is That 70s' Show. I love Jackie. I mean, she is one of the kind of people I most hate, but I really love her. I don't know why. I think it's because she has a very strong personality, and I really admire it. Also, she is so hot...
Well, obviously, I love Mila Kunis. But my favorite actress is Kaya Scodelario. I don't know why, but I think she is just perfect.
But you have to know that I'm only a Green Day fan.
I truly love Green Day with all my heart. I'm sure no one in this world loves them as much as I do. I need Green Day to survive. They're my air, my blood; my everything. Green Day is my everything.
I gotta go because I have to sleep. Tomorrow will be awful... I can't hardly wait, hahah. So, goodbye, dear diary, and sweet dreams LOL I hate everything and blah blah blah
Green kisses XD




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