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2011-10-05 00:07:31 (UTC)

Worst Day Of My Life (PLEASE READ)

Ok, so here's what happened today that was so bad. Well, first of all I got a haircut yesterday. Don't get me wrong, that's not bad, that was the reason I fuigured I would have a good day. But then I got to school and I just ache everywhere, in my legs and back and it is just miserable. And so I was sitting in math class and I was just feeling horrible when I fuigure out we don't have any homework. That part was good too. Right after math class, R, my boyfriend, gave me a note. I fuigured it to say something sweet, so I waited for him to walk away and I opened it and greedily read what it said. It said,"I think we should break up." So much for a good day. This is the first time I had been broken up with and it was horrible. It felt like part of me was being ripped away, like someone had ripped open my chest and phisically stole my heart, and stabbed me in the stomach and walked away. Somehow I made it through lunch without showing it to my friend, but when I did I just broke down. It was horrible. The fact that it was in the middle of everyone didn't help anything. I just kept on crying on and off throughout the school day. I loved him. I was sure of it. I could never get him out of my head or my heart, and I never did anything to provoke this, and now I'm listening to Spacebound by Eminem, and I feel like I'm going to start crying again. I just feel completely empty. Broken. Dead. I feel dead. But I'm not, and I wish I was. I just want him back more then anything. I was in love, I don't get why he had to end it. I'm going to ask him tomorrow. I just ache, I feel horrible in my legs, which are getting even longer then they already are. At least I like long legs... But I ache phisically and mentally and I wish I could get him back, or at least die to end the pain I'm feeling. When I thought about cutting myself again, I just didn't want to. I don't know why. I've been thinking about that alot lately, thinking about doing it, but I just feel like I don't want to. It's strange, but now I have no way to relieve this horrible pain. I started using a razor blade, and it makes me feel exilherent... but I feel Empty. I want to die. To die or to get him back. And I don't get how I am going to be able to go on. I feel hollow. Now When I'm Gone by Eminem is playing and I feel like today is the last day of my life. I feel like I'm going to die when I go to sleep tonight, I'm just going to die. Please tell me that there's someone else out there that feels this way. I feel like I'm going to die, I feel like I'm going to cry. I... I... I feel gone. I am gone. My heart is broken... I love you, R...

~MKG~


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