Linda Zhang

Life sucks and then you die.
2011-10-02 07:34:00 (UTC)

How much I've changed in 10 months

I deleted some entries because I seemed really superficial, and the lamest part is that I talked about my friends a lot, trying to make myself look more "popular" even in my own freaking diary. i also swore a lot back then.. now i know what jackie and meghan mean by it being super annoying when seventh/eighth graders swear.

I quit swimming because my mom kinda forced me to, but I'm really upset about it and I don't think I'm ready to talk about it.. yet

Lessee, I'm not super sad about jeffrey anymore either. it's wierd, even back in january i wasn't "obsessed" anymore because he wasn't all i thought about, but now i realize that it's more like i tried to hold on because i felt like there was nothing/noone else to hold on to.. because even now, i gotta admit, he is reeeally hot;)but, i can proudly say that i'm over it. sure, i might be upset if he hooks up with helen, but maybe we weren't meant to be like i thought back then. honestly, im thankful i met him because he changed my life so much, but he also made me stronger, because no one, NO ONE will be as perfect as him so i'll never be hurt that badly again. haha it might seem like i still like him after typing this paragraph, but i seriously am over him :)

Those are the biggest parts of me that changed, but I guess in terms of being more serious about academics etc i have too. i guess im still learning to be that kind of straight A, perfect student.




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