Crashing-Walls

Whispered Claims of Love
2011-10-01 08:22:51 (UTC)

I Guess You Can Say I'm Happy..

So, as you may have all guesses. Kiba asked me out. Although it was over Facebook, it was a long paragraph that was really sweet, so I'll let it slide. This was about a week ago. So since last saturday, it has been really awkward between us. Even though Kiba makes me really happy, and I love talking about him.

I know neither of us are going to make the first move, so even if this sounds wimpy, I really want to hang out with like Shelby sometime because she could break the ice for me between Kiba and I. I don't know.

I've been talking to Monique a lot more lately, and she said that she was awkward with her boyfriend until they kissed, then they were really close. But I haven't had my first kiss yet, and Kiba didn't know that either. He said first kisses need to be fireworks and amazing and fantastic, so I think he feels scared to even consider that.

He's really sweet towards me, and even today when I wasn't at school, because I left home early because I felt like I was going to puke and faint. I was in the office crying, even though I really shouldn't cry at school anymore because I'm in highschool. I think I'm pathetic sometimes, anyways he got home and messaged me telling me that he missed me all day, and that his day wouldv'e been better if I made it to school. He also asked me if I was sleeping, and if I was then he'd just hug me through my dreams.

I know that may sound corny to some of you people, but I think it was really sweet and nice. Especially because all of the other guys I've dated would've never thought twice about saying that to me.

I'd have to say, that even though Kiba looks like a total scene, jerk who doesn't care about anyone else, he's really just a mushy guy who has a lot of feelings for everyone. He's always caring about someone.

So I'm at Olivia's house right now, and we were looking up costumes to be for halloween. So I was going to be a ventriloquist dummy, there was even this cool makeup tutorial about how to do it, and stuff and I had everything planned out, but then Olivia told me something. She told me that we should all dress up as disney princesses. All the princesses left are Snow White, Mulan, Pochontas, and Sleeping Beauty. And I have brown hair that goes down to my chest, so the closet princess would be Pochontas. But I'm not sure yet.

I would have to say, that even if one person cancels on us, I would just go back to the idea of being a ventriloquist dummy, because it's a cooler idea, Shelby is being batgirl, so I wouldn't feel so stupid if I didn't dress up as a princess.

I stopped writing my fanfic, I don't think I'm ever going to finish it. I just have too many things on my mind right now, I barely have time to watch my anime anymore, and that's my most important thing I have in my life. I don't have to time to keep up with my Kpop stars, and I haven't drawn a decent picture in a while.

I know the things that make me most happy in my life are supposed to make me relaxed, but all it really does is keep me stressed. I'm constantly worried that I could know more than I do, and that a real fan would be watching and know these things and that. I guess just everything is stressing me out right now.

Well I'm tired, my diary. I guess this is a goodbye. Olivia and I are watching That 70's show, and falling asleep to each other's words and stories.

PS. Have you noticed people are the most hilarious to talk to when they are half asleep? Early I called Shelby, and I was asking who she likes, everytime I did, she squealed really loud, and then would say his name. And Olivia's older sister just said something about soup. So I'm not sure, but I find sleep talking hilarious.

Goodbye for now, my readers.




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