CreativeHeart

LittleBlackBook
2011-09-30 13:11:33 (UTC)

Going Away.

So, in like an hour, I'm going to be leaving, to stay with my grandmother for a few days, and then my aunty. NOT the good one.

I am not looking forward to this at all. I've been crying all morning, and resisting the urge to cut.

My mums stupid. She gave me a new razor to take away. It's got 2 blades, which will be perfect for tonight.

I reeeeeally dont want to go.Im stressing about all this school stuff i have to do. I need to get stuff for an assignment, or i get an N award, which wont be good for me. But i dont know if i'll be able to get all this stuff. I dont even know what I need!

Leaving the boyfriend here, too, to survive on his own :P
I feel like we have become closer, and I cant imagine my life without him. He's the bestest best friend in the entire world.

Theres no internet, and little reception, where Im going. No contact for a week. Ugh.

Im just dreading it, so much.

My mums making me tell people about my depression, so she wont have to face people, cos she will be gone. That just adds to my stress, because I will get teased, im almost too sure of it.

Time for a week of loneliness, no sleep, and lots of blood.




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