Imperfect101

The Quill
2011-09-05 14:06:29 (UTC)

Moving On

"Moving on is the hardest thing to do, but isn't it the best way to be a better person who's happier?"

I bet it's hard to move on for other people, it's hard for me too. But I'm in a time where I'm left with no choice but to continue this miserable life. Hm, let's say for now it's miserable because am still moving on. But when I'm finally through this, I know I'd be fine and I'd think life is a gift again.

So, why am I moving on? First of all, I am a person who is scared of change, change for me is a permanent thing that is sad. I don't know, it has always been like that. I'm stuck in a box, I never wanted to go out of this box -wherever this box is, but there's one thing I know: I could take a step at a time. Second of all, despite my fear of change, I have the courage to move on and go have change, and third, I want to find out why I'm here, if I'm meant to move on then there's gotta be a thing that is supposed to be my purpose on being here, alive. Because, you know, I have always been left, I'm always left with the thought that no one dares to love me, but no, I wasn't that desperate. I kept on moving on, and now? Am still moving on. That is the entire reason am so happy, because at least I am given a million chances to do what's best for me. Some people might say it's like running away, but i know they're wrong. It has never been like that, it has always been a choice whether or not to stay, stand up, fight, and win or just run away, leave, and lose.

So, why am I scared of change? Because change, as I've said is a sad permanent thing that happens almost all the time. It's like having a wonderful summer in Bali, but change of weather, change of schedules, change of plans could change that in a second. That's what I've thought. I've still been thinking about that sad permanent thing lately, and I've found out that maybe I'm right with my perspective but in one way or another I knew I was still wrong, because somehow, one must change to move one, one must change to make the world a better place, one must change plans to have a better future. You know what I mean here? I mean that I'm so stupid for not knowing that. A step at a time would work for me, I guess, because despite the word "difficult",I still have the word "courage" to do this!

This box where I'm in? I'm gonna be out of this box someday. How? Well, let's find out somehow, someday. What's my purpose on being here? Same thing, I've got no idea. That's why I'd keep on moving forward, upward, but in times of trouble.. I should always find my way back. I bet it has always been better to bring a map with you.

Remember: God allows U-turns, so go back to Him if you have to. Take care, and Godspeed! <3




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