HaleyNoel14

I would have loved loving you
2011-08-24 21:29:46 (UTC)

August 24th

I shouldn't have got the feelings I got today when you looked at me every time I passed you in the halls. I have a boyfriend now. I'm happy now. Why do I still feel this way though? It's like when you look at me, I feel so many different things. I feel like I miss you. I think about all our memories together. I think about laughing with you and kissing you and just being held in your arms. I almost feel like I love you, but I know I don't. I get this weird feeling in my stomach. Almost like butterflies, but they aren't good butterflies. Like butterflies trying to destroy my stomach. It literally hurts me to look at you. But I also got angry. I got so angry every time you looked at me. I'm angry because I shouldn't feel this way. Like I said, I HAVE A BOYFRIEND now and I'm finally HAPPY with someone else. I'm also angry because you looked at me. Why couldn't you just act like I wasn't there? Why couldn't you have looked away the moment you saw me instead of keeping your eyes set on me? I want to do everything in my power to make sure I don't have to see you again, but it's impossible and I hate it, more than anything. I hate you and what you do to me.




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