Hailey

The Cutting Diary
2011-08-10 03:37:27 (UTC)

Roomies

August 9th, 2011. 10:37 PM

Found out who my roommates are for this year. Two of them I have added the F-Book, and the third had her profile very open.

So of course what is the first thing that flashes through my mind? "Who are these people, and how would they react to me and my...cutting"

Not like I plan on telling them, but it's a scary concept. I know how to lie to my parents and friends because I know them, I know how to hide from them. But these are three strangers. I will be in a completely new environment, will I slip up? Will they see the cuts/scars.

It is quite scary.

They seem nice enough. At least one I can tell likes to party and is a drinker, and the another girl is her best friend so I assume the same. They are much older than me (at least Juniors, maybe seniors), so maybe they will leave me alone (Lord knows I don't like to party, to many people in one area).

The third girl seems like your typical outdoorsy country girl. She seems like a blonde BreAnne. I know how to get along with her type, but her type doesn't tend to get along with the REAL me (just the front I put on so people leave me alone, the best way to disappear is to blend in, after all).

I realize that it's probably not fair to judge these girls (who, like I said, seem perfectly nice), but I can't help it. I have to for my own protection. I do plan on "getting better" in college, so is it wrong of me to try to pre-asses the playing field? Maybe yes, maybe no.

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