K

hummmbug
2011-08-09 16:36:48 (UTC)

R.

R. is boasting on fb about our date on Saturday.. hmm... Makes me feel special I guess. He called me an amazing girl, so I guess that's a plus. :]

.. sidenote... the four year old that I'm babysitting keeps jumping around in circles and it's kind of concerning me, but he says he doesn't have to go potty so I guess it's fine.

Anyways, I don't know if I like R. I may be leading him on, but I told him that I want to take things slow and to just get to know him. I don't know what more to tell him. I'm not ready for anything serious yet. Especially after one first date. That's a little extensive and hopeful on his part. Is he just too desperate? I don't know. We do have a lot in common. And I love that. He's just so smitten which is a turn off. Honestly, he doesn't know me well enough, he's barely scratched the surface,and I him. I don't know, I'll go on another date, and if the romance doesn't strike me right then I guess it's not meant to be. I mean, I've got college to date around (NOT sleep around mind you), and I'm sure there will be other guys. I just don't know. I just feel kind of numb inside. He's just not B. And I'm still attached to B. Even though I don't want to be with B. Damn.

....another sidenote... the jumping is still commencing. What the fuck? He just went into the bathroom. I KNEW HE HAD TO GO POOP! HIZZAH! hahah I'm a weirdo, I know.

But yeah, we'll see about R. A little about him. He has dark brown hair, and brown eyes. He has a slight build. He's about 5'6" and 140 pounds. He's real tiny. Only about twenty pounds heavier than me, which is honestly intimidating. haha. And he doesn't really have muscle. I mean I don't want a body builder, but I want a guy who is able to pick me up and literally sweep me off my feet. He gets music though. Oh boy does he get music. And he's played the guitar and bass for about ten years which is hot plain and simple. It's just hot. Like rip off a guys clothes hot. And he's actually good. He's not just a poser. He has some serious talent. Which is hot. Like I've said. I think it's funny though, because he's a total hipster and B. was the anti-hipster. Ha. But they both like the same music. Although I think R. likes more of the same music as me. I don't think he realizes what I actually listen to... he would be quite surprised about some of the bands and artists in my ipod. As I'm sure I would be about the ones he has in his. He smells good, which is a total plus too. He's not drop dead gorgeous or anything either, but he has this personality where he's really outgoing and he's funny, he likes my humor and thinks I'm funny. He's not afraid to laugh at himself which I love. Because he seems like a total dork like me. And.. just a second.. four year old keeps flushing the toilet uh oh....apparantly four year olds like flushing toilets a lot.

But R. hmm............. well, he is super outgoing which is nice for me since I can be a little too reserved and introverted, I always will be to some extent. But he might stretch me out of my comfort zone and push me, and I him in other ways and that might work. He just is so freaking cheesy. It's like ugh. And I shouldn't have told him that I like puns. Ugh. He says them all the time now. AND he tries to give me a seductive look and that just doesn't work at all for me. Blah. Blech. Blah. Such a turn off. And he smokes tobacco and cigars from time to time which is another huge turn off. I'll tell him that probably the next time I see him. Blech.

I don't really have anything else to say. Just had some stuff to get off my chest even though half of it was redundant haha. Oh well, makes me feel better.

Well, off to watch the last episode of true blood. Mr. four year old is working on educational games on the computer.

Same song as always Never Gonna Leave this Bed - Maroon 5

-K




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