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My Journey
2011-08-01 03:58:39 (UTC)

another weekend gone

Not much happened this weekend, kind of blah.

I can't believe today is the last day of July!! Where has the summer gone?!?! I hate winter and it's so depressing to know there is only a little more than a month left of nice weather. Hot? Yes. But I will take hot, along with green grass, green trees, sitting on the porch, the sounds of bugs etc, any day over winter.

Saturday I actually talked hubby into going on a road trip. Or so I thought. I reminded him that we both needed to go shopping for clothes for the wedding. So, we went to his mom and dad's to visit first. I should have known the "road trip" would probably not happen. Not when he wants to go visiting beforehand. There was also thundestorms in the forecast for the day and one of the races had already been called off, but not the regular ones.

So after visiting we went on the "road trip" . We made it only about halfway to the city I really wanted to go to. We went to a couple of shops, they were already closed, and then decided to get something to eat. After arguing about where to go, and listening to "the other stores are probably closed too" and "the race has probably been called off" I was just ready to say screw it, take me home and forget it. So we came on back down the road, stopped off at the track, bought tickets, got ready to get set up and yep, it started raining. The race was called off. Oh well, great end to a great day. So we came home, and did nothing. Yay.

Today hubby went and picked up stepson this morning. Why, I don't know. They hardly spent any time together. Hubby informed me that stepson told him he wanted him to pick him up every Sunday since he wouldn't be staying on the weekends. Huh?? Why?? He spent the day in his room other than going with hubby to visit his parents again. No, I didn't go, I didn't feel like it. As mean as it is to say this, I had already visited with them yesterday and I didn't want to visit again nor did I want to spend any time with stepson. So they left around 3, hubby dropped stepson off on his way back home. Oh well, whatever.

This morning after hubby got back from picking up stepson, he told me not to worry about making their breakfast, they stopped at Mcdonald's and got something. I said, "oh, how nice, thank you" . He then informed me he didn't get me anything. Now how do you think that would have sat with him had I done that?!?! Not that I eat breakfast anyway, but he could have shown just a little consideration for me. At least I think so anyway.

This entry is very long, but I'm just jotting down my thoughts as they come. I may want or need to reread them at another time.

Hubby also informed me that his dad brought up the subject of what would become of his house if/when something happens to them. They agreed that hubby's sister wouldn't want anything to do with it as she lives in another state and has no desire to come back here. So hubby informs me that he would LOVE living there. He said since I'm not working and it is closer to his work, it would be perfect.

Well, first of all, I HATE that area. Second of all it would mean having to move about 45 minutes farther away from MY mom's house. And with her health lately, who knows how it will be in the future. Third, his parent's house has steps, steps, and more steps just to get in the house. No. I can't walk steps like that on a daily basis. And I wont. I reminded him that he said at one time that his stepson might need a place to live. Well, he could live there. He said no, HE wanted to live there. Well, he might find himself living there. By himself. I won't go. But, I'm sure that will be a conversation to have way way down the road. I hope so anyway.

I'm so dreading the wedding shower. It is in two weeks. I decided today that I will just have someone make the cake, I'm too stressed right now to even try to attempt it. I'll make the sandwiches, I still need to buy a food processor. And then, I'll just do my best to bring what I have to, decorate the place and paste on a happy face and get through it. I still have a dress to find and the actual wedding day to get through. One thing at a time.

I don't know if the HRT has anything to do with it, but I started a period, again. I just had one on the 6th of this month. And I started again last night. And other thing. I don't appreciate my hubby discussing that with his stepson. Why he did it is beyond me. Apparently he mentioned something about me being "out of whack". Stepson told him that he understood because his mom was like that all that time. WHAT?!?!? Just because he/they do really stupid shit and it totally pisses me off is NOT something to blame on hormones being out of whack. I'm allowed to get pissed because I'm pissed. I don't give a damn what age you are or if you are pms-ing or not!!! You do something really bone-headed or say something really stupid and then wonder why the other person is pissed....WHAT?!?!? off for now, until later.......




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