restlessmind

Restless Mind
2011-07-27 05:07:17 (UTC)

Steam

I think I have always been this way. Since I can remember, my mind complicates everything. My brain always over-reacting, stressing last minute about everything and anything. Lying in bed, in those last few moments of consciousness, the only thing that allows me to sleep is to drift into a distant state of thought. I am always thinking: Thinking of me, thinking of what others think of me, thinking of what others think i am thinking of them, thinking about thinking and about how much I over think. This was the result of one of my latest thoughts. A release. Not that I have anxiety or stress accumulated. I am not a depressed kind of person. But lately since I have been growing towards total maturity, my brain has developed more advanced thoughts, and has progressed from its original, simplified state. Ultimately, this is my way to reach out to people. Even if no one reads it, it is still a possibility. But more than that, it is a way for me to release the thoughts built in me, like the pressure in a kettle. These are my thoughts, random and fluid, emotions, and my most deep and sacred philosophies. I am not catering to anyone other than myself. When I feel like writing is when I shall write, and I choose this method because blogs are too complicated, too aesthetic, too superficial. If my words make you want to sleep, then don't read them. But I prefer dull colours but true emotions, as opposed to bright colours and no heart. This is just the beginning of my rants, aspirations, desires, pains and ultimately, my issues. The ones that can be told to a best friend or a therapist. Unfortunately I think that my friends have had enough of my thoughts and I'm not going to see a therapist, so this will have to do. I might even get bored of this after tonight, only the future can tell. Either way, lets start. But where to begin? Let me think...




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