Jessicat

Wye Oak
2011-07-24 00:09:59 (UTC)

Can I...

We got on topic of what I'd do if he touched my boob.
J is me, T is him.
J: Idk, I'd turn red.
T: That's it? :p
J: What do you want me to do?
T: Idk
J: Tell me. :)
T: What would you do?
J: T o m a t ooooo
T: What else?
You can tell me anything i wont tell anyone :p


Then I just... I started crying... Can I really trust him? But what if I'm not good enough? What if I wasted all my time goign for him when really Brad WAS the right one?

I messaged him 5 minutes later.

J: I don't like crying.
T: Why are you crying?
J: Because I want you, but I don't wanna hurt my bf, or regret it later, and I'm afraid that if I dump him, you will hurt me.
T: Why would i hurt you?
J: 'cause compared to everyone else, I'm not even a quarter as good.
T: What do you mean?
J: I'm a clutz, I'm not attractive, I have many flaws, I am an emotional wreck. Although I do have a reputation for hiding emotions.
T: I cant judge you really
J: Meh.
T: I never really seen you
J: True...
T: Your never on cam when i go to tc ;p
J: Oops? :P

Now we are just talking. Alice, your right... But Brad really loves me... I'm afraid of hurting him... So I wanna see if he can change first...


Whatdoidowhatdoidowhatdoido!?!? Errrrgggg! Just a few minutes ago I wanted to throw him in to a wall and then in those wood chippers and then use a giant cheese grader to turn him into cat food! Now he's all sweet and loving, and he listens and... 12 bucks says within 5 min he will be a jerk again. Grrr.


*After le entry*


T: Jessi
Why are you crying? :p
J: I'm not crying no more! :o
T: Why were you?
*thelittleasshatwhoiammadlyinlovewith here HAS FUCKING SIGNED OFF*
Me: hgfjhejwhgfewygfyudfkjdkjfkkjfjewjewkeuifiudkjnkjsndkjd *waits*
It's 1:27.
*WHATEVERHISNAME IS HAS LOGGED IN AGAIN. HURRAH!*
T: Why were you?
J: Because I really want you, but I'm worried you might hurt me.
T: How and why would i hurt you?
J: How: I've never been rejected. Only once. I'm afraid.
Why: You probably won't intend to, but you might.
T: I would have to atm cuz i have a gf.
J: By the way, I'm curious, why are you breaking up with her? Be honest.
T: Cuz shes an annoying fuck
J: Howso? :P
T: Idk ;p (* I. will. explode. if. he. says. that. again. *)
J: You know when we dated, my grades dropped a lot. :o
T: Why?
J: WELLLLL. What was the #1 thing we did in class? Text.
T: Yea
But if your grades dropped you didn't have to text
Is that the only reason?
J: Well then after breaking up with you, and Dutchess died, and me getting sick for a month or two, and having to miss 2 weeks of scho- oh look chocolate.
T: Why do you still like me?
J: I dunno. Why?
T: Idk ive never seen you before :D ;p
J: I don't want to meet in person yet, if that's what your asking. O_O
T: No? ;p
Im just saying ive never seen you
J: Well of course we haven't. Although you remind me of that kid I met in mcdonalds when I was 5 or 6 and wanted sex.
T: Oh thanks...
J: You even looked like him! :D
T: That's bad.
Be honest whats the best thing you like about me?
J: Uhm... lemme think...
Probably your apathetic charm.
T: It took you that long to think of one thing?
J: There was many to choose from, and you said the best.
So I had to make sure it was good.
T: Whats there to choose from?
J: Many things.

fjkldjfklewjklewjfklejklfjkljekjekwjwfklewjflkjf WHY AM I PUTTING THESE HERE. OH YES ECAUSE HE IS SO GOD DAMN SWEET-ISH SOMETIMES.




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