broken hearted girl

love problems
2011-07-22 15:25:05 (UTC)

im broken hearted..

DEAR DIARY,
YES IM SO VERY IN LOVE WITH MY BOYFRIEND ARIES MAN..LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART..I KNOW I'VE LIED TO HIM WELL NOT BEEN COMPLETLEY HONEST WITH HIM..BECAUSE WHEN SOMEONE KNOWS YOUR PAST THEY CAN USE IT AGAINST YOU..THE PAST IS JUST WHAT IT IS..ITS THE PAST..NOTHING SHOULD MATTER WHAT I DID IN THE PAST PERIOD BECAUSE WE WAS NOT TOGETHER..

BUT IM VERY HURT SO HURT I CAN'T EVEN CRY NOMORE I DON'T THINK.I BEEN CHEATED ON SO MUCH THAT I CAN'T EVEN CRY ANY MORE SO VERY HURT HE CHEATED ON ME WITH HIS BABYMA..I'M DID BAD THINGS JUST TALKING TO FRIENDS WHO HAD FEELINGS FOR ME WHICH ARMY BOY DID BUT WE NEVER HAD SEX..ARIES MAN WAS STILL IN MY HEART..I WAS STILL TALKING TO NAVY BOY TRYING TO SITUATED THINGS SO I COULD START A NEW BEGINNING WITH ARIES MAN

WHAT IM SO VERY UPSET ABOUT IS THAT HE GAVE ME SO MUCH HELL ABOUT JUST TALKING BUT HE JUST GOT TO UNDERSTAND IT WAS TALK NOTHING PHYSICAL I AIN'T SPREAD MY LEGS FOR ANY OF THEM..COULD NEVER CHEAT AND HE HAVE MADE MAD PLENTY OF TIMES..I THOUGHT HE HAD CHEATED BUT THAT AIN'T MAKE ME GO OUT AND CHEAT..I COULD NEVER JUST LAY IN BED WITH ANOTHER MAN WHEN I LOVE THE ONE IM WITH..I MIGHT DO ALOT OF THINGS BUT IM NOT A CHEATER..

HE CALLED ME A HOE LAST NIGHT WOAH THAT HURTED HE WAS THE VERY 1ST MAN WHO SAID THEM WORDS TO ME..NEVER QUITE LABELED MYSELF THAT I JUS WAS TRYING TO FIND LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES I WAS JUST TRYING TO FIND MYSELF..BUT A HOE SMH THAT HURTED VERY BADLY..SLEEPING WITH UR EX SLEEPING WITH HER WHEN HE TOLD ME HE AIN'T WANT HER LIKE THAT NOMORE.. GUESS THAT EXPLAINS WHY SHE SAID SHE WANTED HIM BACK IN JUNE SOMETIME..THAT SHIT HURT KNOWING HE GAVE HIS LOVE NOT ONLY TO ANOTHER WOMAN BUT HIS EX..HIS BABYMA WHICH WILL ALWAYS BE IN HIS LIFE EVEN IF I DON'T BE IN IT..SHE HAS A CHILD..AND SOMEONE WAY IM SUPPOSE TO BE COMFORTABLE WITH HIM GOIN PICKING UP HIS CHILD AND FEELIN LIKE THEY WANT FUCK NO MORE...

THAT WILL BE A CHALLENGE..HE GAVE ANOTHER WOMAN HIS BODY HOW COULD IT..YES I MADE DUMB DECISIONS BUT I NEVER TOOK IT THAT FAR TO GET REVENGE IN SLEEPIGN WITH ANYONE..NEVER I LOVE HIM WAY TO MUCH..IT JUST HURT THAT HE DO SPITEFUL THNGS LIK THIS..THIS IS A MAN I WANT TO MARRY HAVE MY KIDS BY BUT WILL HE DO THIS IF WE MARRY??

IM MAD SAD AND ANGRY AT ONCE SHE TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME.. SHE MADE HIM CAUTION OF ALL FEMALES..I HAD NOTHING TO ATTACH HIM TO ME BUT SEX AND MY HEART WHICH AT TIMES I FELT HE PROBABLY WOUULD LEAVE SENSE SHE HAD HIS CHILD..AND SHE COULN'T EVEN JUST LET ME HAVE ONE THING..HE GIVING HIS LOVING TO HER IT MAKE LIKE HE CAN FUCK HER WHEN THINGS AIN'T GOING RIGHT WITH ME AND HIM..SHE GOT HIS CHILD BUT HE WANT GIVE ME ONE SAYS HE WANT TO MARRY 1ST BUT IS THAT A COVER UP???SHE HAVE BASICALLY HAD HIM WHEN I DIDN'T..HE SAYS HE WANT DO IT NOMORE..ONLY TIME WILL TELL..IMMA JUST BE UNDERSTAND AND LICK MY WOUNDS..CAUS THIS RIGHT HERE HURT ME TO MY HEART..

HE WANT' BE THE 1ST WHO HAVE CHEATED AN I ALWAYS SEEM TO FORGIVE EACH AND LAST ONE OF THEM AND TAK THEM BACK SO THEY CAN DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN..WHO AM I FOOLING..HIS BABYMA THINKIN SHE GOT HIM NOW WHICH SHE MIGHT DO HE MIGHT NOT KNOW IT JUST YET..IF ANY MAN CAN SLEEP WITH DER BABYMA AND ENJOY IT DEN SHE STILL HAV POWER OVER HIM..AND SHE COMING TO COME BACK FOR MORE..CAUSE HE OPENED THAT DOOR AND SHE GOING TO THINK IT WILL BE OK FOR THEM TO CHEAT AND HAVE SEX AND STILL KEEP THERE RELATIONSHIPS WITH THERE BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIENDS..

HE SAY I PLAYED HIM LIKE A FOOL HE TRYING TO PLAY ME NOW..SHE IS NOT FIN TO JUST LET HIM GO AFTER HE FUCKED HER AND HE KNEW HE HAD SOMEONE THAT GAV HER THE WRONG IMPRESSION!!!BUT IF I EVEN SUSPECT IN MY HEAD HE STILL GOT FEELINS FOR HER OF THEY SHE TRYIN TO FUCK HIM IN ANY SORT OF WAY I WILL HAV TO THROW MY FLAG UP AND LEAVE I CANT' DEAL WITH SHARING ANY BODY WITH DER BABYMA..

I CANT BELIEVE I'VE BEEN SHARING MY DICK WITH HER.I WAS THINKING HE WAS ONLY FUCKING ME BUT SHIT HAPPENS DIDN'T KNOW BODY FUCK ME WOUDLNT ALLOW IT.HE SHARED HIS DICK WITH HER JESUS..I JUS WONDER DID HE HAVE SEX WITH HER BETTER DEN HE DID ME??AND IF HE DID DEN THEY MIGHT WILL GET BACK TOGETHER EVENTUALLY..IF THEY CAN SLEEP TOGETHER THEY CAN GET BACK TOGETHER..AND THEY BOTH HAD SOMEONE WHO DOES THAT..!!!!!I HAV MY FAULTS BUT DAMN I DIDN'T GIV ANYBODY NO PUSSY WHAT SO EVER..

IM JUST HURT BUT I WILL GET OVER IT..JUST ANOTHER LEARNING EXPERIENCE..BUT Y IT ALWAYS HAV TO BE AN CHEATING LEARNING EXPERIENCE..THEY HURT!!!I HAVEN'T CRIED I CAN'T CRY BUT THAT DON'T MEAN I WANT..I CRIED JUST A LITTLE WHEN HE TOL ME ON THE PHONE..BUT I TOOK IT BETTER DEN I THOUGHT I WOULD EVER TAK IT..GUESS CAUSE I FIGURED THAT IS HIS BABYMA HE STOPPED TXTING ME ETC..I JUST ADDED 2PLUS 2..I JUST PUSHED IT OUT MY HEAD THINKING HE WOUDLN'T DO THAT BUT O WELL MY BUBBLE WAS BURST..EVEN THE BEST MAN FALLS!!!




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