my thoughts

My Journey
2011-07-12 05:53:43 (UTC)

glad the day is over

It has been a very tiring day and I'm glad it's over.

I spent the majority of the day at the hospital with my mom while she had a heart cath done. She made it through just wonderful and I'm still amazed at what a strong woman she is. I wish I had half the strength she does.

I'm not sure when I last wrote, I'm too tired right now to try to even remember what I did write last time. So, I'll just write my current thoughts and move on.

Saturday night was extremely boring, I left the track feeling sort of let down and disappointed. Sunday was.......well, Sunday wasn't a very good day at all. Matter of fact, it was one of the worse days I've had in awhile. I spent almost the entire day and evening with one of the worst migraines I've had in a long time. Hubby and I got into a HUGE fight, which didn't help matters, and then I had to take my mom for the cath today.

Other than some of my family members being there getting on my nerves, and then getting on my mom's nerves, everything went really smooth. I was so relieved that we got to take her back home tonight so that she can rest in her own bed. I believe she is going to bounce back just fine.

My daughter is gone out of town with a couple of her co-workers, they took her out for a bachelorette party so I sort of missed her not being there with us today. She wanted to be, and felt terrible that she wasn't, but we told her to go and enjoy. The party has been planned for several weeks. There wasn't anything she could have done today anyway.

I have a couple of little guilty pleasures that I took part in today, nothing really awful, but fun nonetheless. We missed the special race tonight because of the surgery, but that was ok too. There are many races, only one mom. But. After I saw that she was safely home, and settled for the night, I went to the track in hopes to at least catch the end. Lucky for me, when I got there, it had just started. But then unlucky for me, it started raining. They didn't call the race off, said to just hang tight and wait it out, but I didn't feel right, knowing hubby wasn't with me, so I came home. Of course when I got home he was in bed asleep. I sort of wanted to kick myself for not staying at the race. I connected with a friend that I haven't talked to in quite some time. He asked where had I been, I just told him it was complicated. He said he almost jumped when he "saw" me, and that he had missed me. I laughed and told him I assumed he had forgotten me. Oh well, I may "run" into him again, or I may not. I guess it just depends.... It depends on if I decide to visit those "towers" again soon or not. I know. Talking in code here. I'm just not sure about this friendship. I will have to wait and see.

I see my therapist tomorrow. That's a good thing. I need some insight. Or a pep talk. Or a reprimand. Something. until later...




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