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Gohar's Journal
2011-06-26 01:11:18 (UTC)

Random day

Gohar's journal...

Its 3.52AM. Im trying to get some sleep. But thoughts of Huda leaving are bringing me down. However I had a boost of morale when she sent me a facebook message which said that she was my knight in shining armour-ess. I dot know what to say and therefore dedicate a post to her...hope she likes it.
She sent me the crossfire video by brandon flowers. She has such exquisite taste in music.
Good news...she has agreed to see me in hyde park at 1.30 later on today. Hope all goes well.
*lapse of time*
Wake up at around 10-ish. Parents want me to come shopping with them to buy a new floor for my room and lobby outside my room. I kindly decline and state I have plans to meet a friend. I am not feeling well. Not because I ate some rubbish food. The feeling of losing someone...Weird.
I try to leave at 12.30 to meet huda but she states she is running late and we will have to make it 2.00 - no problem. She then states in a later text that 'lets make it 2.30'...shes not feeling her best.
No problem. I leave but traffic is a nightmare. Chinese diplomats are out and so roadblocks.

Huda calls me and she sounds not well. Low tone voice and slow pace. Worried. I get the bus and try to get to her quickly but traffic is stil murder. She rings me up and says "seriously, seriously, no, seriously???" I have genuinely never been so scared of someone who has said this to me. I'm genuinely very impressed!

I meet her outside the gate of hyde park. She is wearing brown boots, dark trousers and a brownish flowery shirt/top. She looks amazing. I apologize and we head to mcdonalds for lunch. Funny discussions about her niece and relatives. Shes wearing orange nail-polish. I let her talk as she has the best ideas and never fails to make me laugh.
We leave McD and go to boots. She is shopping for her mother. We make jokes about me wearing make up...dior saleswoman joins in...funny moment. Somehow i feel like i belong. I'll get back to you on that.

We leave and sit in the shade in someone's private mews driveway's pavement. people are looking...who cares. I talk to her about random stuff and we pull on the subject regarding her staying in london for Uni later on this year. I'm not entirely happy with her response. I try to convince her that she HAS to come back to London to do Biomed at KCL. She says okay but i am not convinced. I made her promise but still not convinced. We change the subject so not to depress her further.
We remain there for nearly two hours - she has plans to see Madu at 6. We go into Clairs and i notice there is a chewing gum stuck to her ass. I point this out to her...her face turns red but just the right amount...perfect. We get tape and she tries to tape her top to her trouser so that is conceals that gum that is proving a challenge. We leave and head to the rendevous point for Madu. She aims for a hug. During which I say ten more seconds. I dont know why i said that. but am glad i did. It was amazing. Ive never been in contact with her for that long. I tell her to be online and keep in contact etc. She makes a joke and laughs and says thanks for coming even when you were ill and leaves. Come to think of it. I think she found me saying ten more seconds highly uncomfortable. And i sincerely apologize if i did make her feel that way.
*time lapse* Moving on.

I head home and find that my room's floor has been ripped up. Okay so i guess am getting a cherry brown floor. We have dinner and watch tv. I'm feeling sick again. That sunken stomach feeling is back again...she is leaving on Tuesday...am i really going to lose someone? I try to ignore it but its way too much. I watch bit of TV and head for bed. Its really hot.

I realise from the past the few hundred days Huda has made it into my diary everyday regardless of the fact that i may not have seen her or even spoken to her for weeks. Something is up. I will let you know as time on goes on.

Goodnight.X




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