AcidRain

Sane Inside Insanity
2011-06-23 17:56:29 (UTC)

You can't deny chemistry.

Chemistry is something you cannot deny. It's something you have no control over. It just happens. What happens when someone attempts [note the key word] to force a connection that you just don't have with the person? Disaster. What happens when someone attempts to deny the chemistry that's held between people? Disaster. I'm not saying that you should always act on your gut feeling, but when you have a connection to someone from the very moment you meet, you know it, and you shouldn't loose sight of it. Do you remember the very first time we made any type of physical contact? I know I always revert back to this memory, but it's got such a strong hold on my mind and my heart. We were in a dance club at school, and we were going to be partners. As you know, I had no interest in you at all. I saw you as an egotistical jackass. You were no where near what my type was. Then it happened. The very thing that would change everything. I placed my hand in yours, your hand went on my waist. That would begin the very thing that would send us both on an emotional roller coaster. Do you remember the flirty remarks we'd make to each other? Going on and on about how we'd never date each other because in our own eyes, the other stood no chance. How I was wrong. I recall, as if it just happened. sitting in the front of the school, and you came and sat next to me. You asked what was wrong, and I told you I was scared of feeling something for you. You understood, and said we'd just take things as they come. A few short weeks later, I came crying to you. Telling you that I couldn't talk to you because the person I was with was threatening me. You knew how much that hurt me, you could tell how much I needed you then, despite the fact that I was denying it myself. You held me that morning, wiped the tears from my eyes, and told me you'd protect me no matter what. No matter how much I tried to deny how I felt for you, I loved you long before I realized it. You were the exception to every rule I've placed to keep myself safe. Here I am, about ten months later, completely broken. We turned out in a way I never thought possible. I've loved with such a great intensity, then lost with a greater pain than I've ever known. I know I'll never have such an intense connection to anyone else. You still give me butterflies, and when we touch, I still get the same shock through my entire body... I know that hast to mean something...




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