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Says who?
2011-06-16 00:16:28 (UTC)

non-existant

The woman that loves me, the woman that cared, the gentle way she handled me, her touch eased my soul, her smile lit up a dark day.. her laughter filled me.. our talks were deep, intriguing.. complimentary. The woman that used to look at me and smile.. couldnt wait to see me, hear from me... this gentle captivating woman who soaked us in.. her words are hurtful, she tells me I annoy her, that i put her in moods the opposite of how I used to make her feel.. i don't know this woman any longer... I cry, everyday... they say time, time heals everything, but so much damage is done, is there no recovery? Her time for me is limited or close to non-existence.. I am ugly, unattractive, she hates me.. i am a loser, no good, no morals, selfish, imature, unreliable.. more than beautiful, loving, caring, attractive.. a complimet, non-existing. I no longer chase, and when I did, it was an awful rejection, deep, dark and ugly, almost unbareable.. she couldn't recite any poem of mine, or name one.. or tell anyone or herself what they are about, unless of course it pertains to her.. I don't fit in her life, she's diminishing from mine... I ached, craved, yearned for her, why? Now I cry, silently at what im left with.. I have a hole in my heart and I am a changed person because of her.. A thousand to be desired by, but the one that I love despises me, can't stand me, knocks me judges me and doesn't support me.. what did she love about me really? Did she really ever love me? .... she hates my dog. I miss hers.




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